Second semester was like a lightning in slow motion. I kept feeling that I didn't study much during this sem. That was mainly because I didn't enjoy much. First sem was filled with tips to Millcreek mall and shopping and stuff. Second semester was filled with college and GE.
I always wanted to top the class once. The last time I remember doing that was in the first test in 5th standard. I had got 55/60. I saw my report card and got completely depessed at the 5 marks I lost. I later came to know that everyone else lost lot more than me. It felt good bing a winner.
Now I didn't feel anything about my 'so called' good results. No one really cares about it actually. There was a time when people used to show some interest in my life. Now everything seems as intersting as watching some Shahrukh movie on Zee cinema for the 27th time.
I also happened to spend the most boring birthday ever. I didn't even realize I turned 23. I've probably spent the most boring 3 months ever. The only consolation I get is that I brought this over myself. I am not a good guy. I always give others what I want from them, whether they like it or not. I ignore people who adore me and I run behind people who ignore me.
Everything changes in life in its own way. Things will change in my life too. I spend a big chunk of my time wallowing in the past. I sometimes jus hate everything. But something I noticed is that I don't do anything about it. Before I used to try changing things which I thought needed to be changed. Now Im doing things the other way round.
This blog is probrbly the most depressing blog ever. I'll probably write somthing interesting sometime.
great story!
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