Sometimes in life we want things the way we wish to see it. We often forget life is something wherein we need to recieve what we get and build ourselves such that we're happy with what we have. W should grow up to be prod of te people we've become...
Sometimes we try to attach too many strings to the things around us. Now that something happened, we want something else to hapen. We attach a stringto everything that goes on in our lives to something that may very well not happen. "Expectations" some people call it. We do it so natrally and so sub-consiously that we don't realize how many loose ends we have hanging. Every lose end becomes an empty space. A space unfilled becomes desperation. And we'll end up craving for something that we were never supposed to have.
Something happens in our lives, we should try to just let it be. Wai for the things to follow. Learn from things that happen. When we learn we start seeing an overview of things. We start seing more than what we thought it was. But when we start losing control of stuff, we stoop lower. We miss out on things that are hppening above. We'll end up looking at the lose strings. Staring at empty spaces.
Life has a lot to give. We should be brave enough to accept what come. Smart enough to make the right choices. Have a broad mind to see what you're missing. Be proud to be who you are.
The only solace we can get is that no one is perfect in this. Mistakes are the path towards a genius. Scarifices are the path to greatness. Love is the path to happiness. To life... cheers!!!
Aug 9, 2008
Aug 1, 2008
Dont want snickers
Get special. Do something amazing.
Touch the clouds. Fly.
Kiss the lips of the girl you love.
Continue dreaming...
All that matters at the end is not what others did to you, but what you did to them. As my very good friend once said - "You're here for others". Keep goin through life being just what you are. Go through the same routine everyday. Do the same crap as always. Expect nothing. Things will come to you by themselves.
Ideally it seems totally right when someone says "if you don't want anything you'll get everything". Its kind of illogical because when you want nothing anything you get seems to be something. You say you'll sacrifice chocolates and someone gives you a Ravalgon and you'll be like thinking... "nice". But you keep thinking you want a diary milk bar and someone gives you a munch bar, you'll be thinkin "I never get things I desire". That's why people who desire stuff like Snickers and Hershey's get jacked right up their rectums.
Touch the clouds. Fly.
Kiss the lips of the girl you love.
Continue dreaming...
All that matters at the end is not what others did to you, but what you did to them. As my very good friend once said - "You're here for others". Keep goin through life being just what you are. Go through the same routine everyday. Do the same crap as always. Expect nothing. Things will come to you by themselves.
Ideally it seems totally right when someone says "if you don't want anything you'll get everything". Its kind of illogical because when you want nothing anything you get seems to be something. You say you'll sacrifice chocolates and someone gives you a Ravalgon and you'll be like thinking... "nice". But you keep thinking you want a diary milk bar and someone gives you a munch bar, you'll be thinkin "I never get things I desire". That's why people who desire stuff like Snickers and Hershey's get jacked right up their rectums.
Jun 26, 2008
Cedar point - \m/
Crazy rides, hot chicks, dizzy heights... Cedar point just rocks!
The coasters at this place was almost as thrilling as the ones I can imagine. ie., they are goood... The speed of the coasters, the twists and turns and shootups and fall-downs gives you the satisfaction of spending $40.
A mistake I did was to sit in the bigger (so called scary) rides at the beginning. After that riding some of the smaller coasters feels like sitting on a merry-go-round. If I had seen one of those coasters at Dasara exhibition, I would have gone "Woooow man!".
Few of the rides last like nearly 5 mins. I remember this one called 'Maverick'. There was such a huge queue to that. But I even enjoyed the queue. Looking at all the girls around me in those skimpy clothes was just more than what i'd asked for. That queue was almost as long as the Tirupati queue... full of hot chicks - just awesome!
Im definitely goin there again. And im goin to ride each coaster twice...
Cedar point (link)
The coasters at this place was almost as thrilling as the ones I can imagine. ie., they are goood... The speed of the coasters, the twists and turns and shootups and fall-downs gives you the satisfaction of spending $40.
A mistake I did was to sit in the bigger (so called scary) rides at the beginning. After that riding some of the smaller coasters feels like sitting on a merry-go-round. If I had seen one of those coasters at Dasara exhibition, I would have gone "Woooow man!".
Few of the rides last like nearly 5 mins. I remember this one called 'Maverick'. There was such a huge queue to that. But I even enjoyed the queue. Looking at all the girls around me in those skimpy clothes was just more than what i'd asked for. That queue was almost as long as the Tirupati queue... full of hot chicks - just awesome!
Im definitely goin there again. And im goin to ride each coaster twice...
Cedar point (link)
Jun 10, 2008
The story so far
Second semester was like a lightning in slow motion. I kept feeling that I didn't study much during this sem. That was mainly because I didn't enjoy much. First sem was filled with tips to Millcreek mall and shopping and stuff. Second semester was filled with college and GE.
I always wanted to top the class once. The last time I remember doing that was in the first test in 5th standard. I had got 55/60. I saw my report card and got completely depessed at the 5 marks I lost. I later came to know that everyone else lost lot more than me. It felt good bing a winner.
Now I didn't feel anything about my 'so called' good results. No one really cares about it actually. There was a time when people used to show some interest in my life. Now everything seems as intersting as watching some Shahrukh movie on Zee cinema for the 27th time.
I also happened to spend the most boring birthday ever. I didn't even realize I turned 23. I've probably spent the most boring 3 months ever. The only consolation I get is that I brought this over myself. I am not a good guy. I always give others what I want from them, whether they like it or not. I ignore people who adore me and I run behind people who ignore me.
Everything changes in life in its own way. Things will change in my life too. I spend a big chunk of my time wallowing in the past. I sometimes jus hate everything. But something I noticed is that I don't do anything about it. Before I used to try changing things which I thought needed to be changed. Now Im doing things the other way round.
This blog is probrbly the most depressing blog ever. I'll probably write somthing interesting sometime.
I always wanted to top the class once. The last time I remember doing that was in the first test in 5th standard. I had got 55/60. I saw my report card and got completely depessed at the 5 marks I lost. I later came to know that everyone else lost lot more than me. It felt good bing a winner.
Now I didn't feel anything about my 'so called' good results. No one really cares about it actually. There was a time when people used to show some interest in my life. Now everything seems as intersting as watching some Shahrukh movie on Zee cinema for the 27th time.
I also happened to spend the most boring birthday ever. I didn't even realize I turned 23. I've probably spent the most boring 3 months ever. The only consolation I get is that I brought this over myself. I am not a good guy. I always give others what I want from them, whether they like it or not. I ignore people who adore me and I run behind people who ignore me.
Everything changes in life in its own way. Things will change in my life too. I spend a big chunk of my time wallowing in the past. I sometimes jus hate everything. But something I noticed is that I don't do anything about it. Before I used to try changing things which I thought needed to be changed. Now Im doing things the other way round.
This blog is probrbly the most depressing blog ever. I'll probably write somthing interesting sometime.
Apr 16, 2008
random thoughts
I feel im in a very relationshippy place now and I like it. I adore my girl and it just feels good being committed. That is like the best thing that ever happened to me. Not only for all the koochie koo stuff but also on the broader sense. I've learnt so much about life...
We all spend our lives chasing a dream till we one day we realize that we were neck deep in it, but we just waded past it hoping to reach a bigger sea. I wanted so much out of life that I never realized it when I had it. When things turn completely ugly I realize that it used to be pretty before.
Its like the axiom of life... I remember the lyrics of 'affirmation' by savage garden which actually got me thinking about all these...
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I used to listen to this band a lot once upon a time. When I got my computer and had around 50 songs...
In one of the many mails I used to recieve, I had once read...
(apparently the words of Swamy Vivekananda)
Love is like holding water in your palm. You try to hold it tight, it'll slip through your fingers
So savage garden + swamy vivekananda =
"Love is like holding water in your palm. You'll try to hold it tight till you squeeze the last drop out and you'll realize you shouldn't have done it till your mouth goes dry and u feel thirsty"
Sometimes we really start dwelling in cocoons of our own misery!
We all spend our lives chasing a dream till we one day we realize that we were neck deep in it, but we just waded past it hoping to reach a bigger sea. I wanted so much out of life that I never realized it when I had it. When things turn completely ugly I realize that it used to be pretty before.
Its like the axiom of life... I remember the lyrics of 'affirmation' by savage garden which actually got me thinking about all these...
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I used to listen to this band a lot once upon a time. When I got my computer and had around 50 songs...
In one of the many mails I used to recieve, I had once read...
(apparently the words of Swamy Vivekananda)
Love is like holding water in your palm. You try to hold it tight, it'll slip through your fingers
So savage garden + swamy vivekananda =
"Love is like holding water in your palm. You'll try to hold it tight till you squeeze the last drop out and you'll realize you shouldn't have done it till your mouth goes dry and u feel thirsty"
Sometimes we really start dwelling in cocoons of our own misery!
Apr 8, 2008
jackasses...
This world is full of sad people. At some level everybody is sad because nobody gets what they want.
I spent a big chunk of my life thinking that I did not want anything in life. Its just very recently that I realized that I ended up really wanting something. I always wanted to be happy by just relishing what I had. Its just recently I realized what it feels like to not get what you want.
Now its a lil tough to get back to the mainstage and laugh because the side curtains of the stage seem very comforting. This day surpasses everyone's life.
Let everone who's caused pain among others suffer what they've caused. Including me.
I spent a big chunk of my life thinking that I did not want anything in life. Its just very recently that I realized that I ended up really wanting something. I always wanted to be happy by just relishing what I had. Its just recently I realized what it feels like to not get what you want.
Now its a lil tough to get back to the mainstage and laugh because the side curtains of the stage seem very comforting. This day surpasses everyone's life.
Let everone who's caused pain among others suffer what they've caused. Including me.
Apr 6, 2008
Life of a screw-up
DILBERT: "Of all the projects, I like the doomed ones best"
I posess an immense capacity to screw things up better than anyone else can. I also posess good ctreative talent to do new things.
Till now I think of all the things I've done in my life. The ones that I liked are all gone. Of course due to my mistake. All the things that I didn't like persist like roaches after a nuclear holocaust.
I used to do so many things when I was a kid. With my wheels (lego as all the retard kids call it there days) I used to do things that used to amaze my parents. I did things that were so good that it surprised me. All those days, and all the things had to pass into some dark ally of my past.
I had made painting that were good enough to be sold. I used to be an artist. But time ahd to wash it all away. I don't even know where those damn painting went either. I used to love them so much. I used to spend hours gazing at them. It used to give me such pleasure. Not the pleasure of appreciating myself. But the pleasure of all the things I could do. Much better than what i was seeing.
I used to do so many things with sticks and chalk and other things that are well known to be in the dust bin. Some how none of them exist now. All stay only in my memory. Bits and peices in other's big heads too.
My mind is an amazing place. If someone could actually peek into it, they'll be amazed at the things that exist there. I value the person I am. There were things I did that was good at times. But none of them exist. There was a person who they remember to be very good. But even he's gone to some alien land to write their software. I have always been my own hero. No one knows the things I've done. No one will either. Everyone knows bits and peices of me.
I known all the ingenious things i've done. I've known all the things i've seen wash by. I've known all the things i've screwed up.
The best parts of our lives are in our heads which unfortunately spends most of its time ignoring everything it has. Life is all about appreciating the things you've done and eventually screwed up. The value of an object is always better seen through its ashes.
I posess an immense capacity to screw things up better than anyone else can. I also posess good ctreative talent to do new things.
Till now I think of all the things I've done in my life. The ones that I liked are all gone. Of course due to my mistake. All the things that I didn't like persist like roaches after a nuclear holocaust.
I used to do so many things when I was a kid. With my wheels (lego as all the retard kids call it there days) I used to do things that used to amaze my parents. I did things that were so good that it surprised me. All those days, and all the things had to pass into some dark ally of my past.
I had made painting that were good enough to be sold. I used to be an artist. But time ahd to wash it all away. I don't even know where those damn painting went either. I used to love them so much. I used to spend hours gazing at them. It used to give me such pleasure. Not the pleasure of appreciating myself. But the pleasure of all the things I could do. Much better than what i was seeing.
I used to do so many things with sticks and chalk and other things that are well known to be in the dust bin. Some how none of them exist now. All stay only in my memory. Bits and peices in other's big heads too.
My mind is an amazing place. If someone could actually peek into it, they'll be amazed at the things that exist there. I value the person I am. There were things I did that was good at times. But none of them exist. There was a person who they remember to be very good. But even he's gone to some alien land to write their software. I have always been my own hero. No one knows the things I've done. No one will either. Everyone knows bits and peices of me.
I known all the ingenious things i've done. I've known all the things i've seen wash by. I've known all the things i've screwed up.
The best parts of our lives are in our heads which unfortunately spends most of its time ignoring everything it has. Life is all about appreciating the things you've done and eventually screwed up. The value of an object is always better seen through its ashes.
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